Another Update!

So I haven't posted on here in a while. I decided to do another update. Here is my muse on moving, my health, school and life in general.

Moving: We are still in NJ right now. I am so happy we didn't move before Christmas like we've always done. The date of my last post, things were still up in the air because we didn't have a place to go. My uncle called us a few weeks after that and offered to rent us a place to live. Our estimated moving date is March 18th. We will be going to SC. I am looking forward to it. It will be a nice new beginning. I will definitely miss all my NJ friends but I have no choice but to move there. I found a great college that offers the major I want and the cost is quite low. I also found some great places I could apply that are nearby as well as some churches near too. I feel God is leading us there and I am glad things are working out. We are still trying to find the money to move so that is what is truly holding us back.

Health: Last time I was getting so sick that I couldn't eat without getting sick. It was terrible. I went through the gluten testing and it came back negative. The doctors said I don't have a gluten intolerance or sensitivity but I feel a lot better on it. After we move I am going to avoid gluten as much as possible as well as eat as little as possible processed stuff. I think these changes will help me feel better as well.

School: Last semester went well in my classes. I dropped my psychology class because it was such a stressful semester. But after switching my schedule around, in the end I passed my classes surprisingly because of the certain situations that happened in October.

Life: October 31st 2010 my family and I found my brothers friend dead. He hung himself. It was terrible and it still haunts us to this day. I can't imagine what his family has been going through since he was only 18 years old. Each day it gets a little easier to handle but considering that, I expected my life to spiral out of control because it has traumatized me. God is good and totally merciful. He healed my traumatized heart and mind and helped me take the steps to move on. It was definitely a miracle that I did. I pray that my brother's friend's family is leaning on God to pull them through this as well. I can't imagine what they have been going through losing a son, brother and friend.If I didn't have God as my strength to help me overcome this horrific event then I still would be struggling with it more than I am now. It has gotten easier each day but it still is there in the back of my mind, I am so thankful to God that He helped me and my family through this situation.

That has been my update for now.

Muse on love and relationships

So I have so many feelings right now. I don't know if they are right or wrong. But at the moment I don't want to be right. I know this is a song but I think it's how I feel. I won't act on these feelings right now. I will give them to God and He will guide my steps in this situation. In His time, things will work out.

Muse on moving, school, and health

So here is an update:
We have to move because of financial problems...it is still up in the air, we don't know were we are going or when. Mom wants to move before Christmas. We ALWAYS ALWAYS move before or very close to the holidays...I don't know why.

School:
I go to college, that's how I started this blog in my computer class. This semester is extremely stressful for me. We are moving, I am a full time student with classes that are a lot more course load than I expected. There is a lot of out of class work like a mandatory 20 hour internship. I swapped an in person class for an online class and think that will help me a bit.

Health:
So it got to the point where I couldn't eat without anything getting sick. I switched to a gluten free diet a few weeks ago and so far it helped. My gastro doc said that to get a definite diagnosis I need to go back on a gluten filled diet for 2 weeks and then go for special testing. I tried to go back on a gluten diet for a day and a half starting monday evening but I got to sick to continue it, I am still recovering from what I ate. When things are a little less stressful and I might try and do the diet and go for the test in a few weeks

I will keep you updated more often.

Muse on weight lose

I started my diet on January 3rd of this year. To date (I weighed last week, weighing myself tomorrow morning), I have lost over 16 pounds! I am soo happy! I love it. My jeans are fitting better and much looser. My goal is to lost another 33 pounds by my birthday (May 25th). If I keep this up I definitely will! If you want my secret, you can comment this post. So far this is the only thing that has worked for me. I am also going to invest a healthy cookbook and start cooking soon. Looking forward to it. I will definitely do a post on that when I start it. :)

Updates!

So, I am changing my major. I want to become a social worker. I am going to look into changing my major after this semester. I am leaving for Detroit in about 2 weeks. I am staying there over spring break. Going on this really cool trip. I will be helping kids, the homeless and college students. I am going with a few friends from school and we are going to stay with a few other schools too. I am looking forward to it. I will definitely do another post when I get back all about the trip. I also have a crush on someone but I am leaving it in God's hands. If we are meant to be together I know it will happen. :) The moving situation is complicated right now and a longer story than I would like to post right now. I will update on that another time. I lost my job at Quick Check in September (I don't remember if I mentioned that before), still haven't been able to find a job since. But God has blessed me with money to pay my bills so I am relieved. I hope I find a job soon but if God needs me for other things, then I know He will guide me. It is really hard doing anything since I can't drive. I can't drive because of my eyesight. I still need to go to some doctors about it and find out for sure. We will have to see about it. That's all for now. I will go into more detail another time. Good night!

Moving....AGAIN!

So a quick recap, I have moved about 7 different times in my lifetime and I found out about two weeks ago that I am going to have to move....AGAIN! Since we are just renting a place I have a feeling this won't be the last time either. If I had the money and a job for that matter as well as the ability to drive, I would move out on my own already. It's not that bad of a place but I just wish we could finally just settle down and enjoy where we are at until either me or my brothers are ready to move out. Oh well, I can't change the fact so I am not going to stress over it. I will tell you more about it soon. I'll even post a picture of my new room-before and after soon. :)

Muse on work

So...after writing such a positive post on Quick Chek. I was fired from there on Friday, September 18, 2009. I decieded to write a letter to the manager that fired me. I feel I was wrongly fired. She said the reason I was fired was because I wasn't fast enough. What confuses me the most is everytime I worked I was praised from my work and how well I was doing. They would say that I was doing much better than several other people when they first started. I never recieved a warning that I need to improve my performance in anyway otherwise I was risking my job. It simply went from "You are doing great!" to "You are fired!". I was in total shock on friday. She also mentioned that they try to fire people within 30 days otherwise it goes on her record that she fired someone after 30 days without 3 write ups. She said that they know within 2 weeks if someone is going to work out. I technically was only there for about 10-12 days INCLUDING the days of training. Technically she didn't even give me two weeks. Even though I was in the system for the past 30 days I only worked AT MOST 2 weeks out of it. I also should have been at least been given a warning or something that I needed to improve. I had no idea that I needed to improve so when she asked me to come in for a meeting I wasn't expecting to be fired. I thought it was just a review after a month and maybe she would mention areas I needed to improve on and that is it. Anyways, I am working on looking for another job. I hope I get one soon! I REALLY need money!